Laughing angrily at the stupidity of your beauty

There was a little fire beneath the moon
And I reached down to play in her hair angrily
Pushing down to break everything

(Cutting my lips on your teeth
And yours on mine)

Crying like a stone
Rocks in the gut of this ache
Ya, ya, ya on fire
Screaming grunting sun

(In your land, I am not seen)

God should have thrown boulders to break my chest open
With a terrible thud
Chucking my heart across the street
Against the curb
A flower so hard of color
And oblivious to everything
Happily.

Legacy

Whatcha gonna be when you grow up, baby?
I’m gonna climb the sky and look down on you.
Whatcha gonna do when you get there, baby?
Gonna cry all night!

I stomp the earth and can’t stand where your footsteps been
Don’t want you next to me
Don’t want your breath on me
I stomp the earth and can’t stand where your footsteps been
Don’t even talk to me
Don’t want your lies on me

Feet just restless like the day when I broke the womb
Arms just scream like a ripple between clock and room
Eyes just begging backwards like the condemned ‘fore his doom
Heart just scraping for the lock to escape this tomb

Whatcha gonna do when you grow up, baby?
Gonna forget you
If it’s all I do
Whatcha wanna go and do that for, baby?
Cuz the world that you left me
Is because of you

Lunatic

Jump the sky, full moon, and my chest is torn
Broken apart like a dog with his jawbone struck
Digging the air for the deep dark water of night
I’m in the shadow of my gleaming claws tonight

Take a deep breath, nose flaring but my mouth is shut
Fire in my belly, and the bone of my teeth is hot
Steel rod in my neck and the cords are tight
I’m in the shadow of my gleaming claws tonight

Eyes ripped back with the tears of an angry soul
Choking the air with the breath of a hateful cold
I smell the terror of the ghost I’ll set free this night
I’m in the shadow of my gleaming claws tonight

Dead is the song of the dream of the flashing lights
Self crucified for a deed that has set to right
Violence invisible and the devil’s white
I’m in the shadow of my gleaming claws tonight

Entitled

Water stirs with God blue winter
Bones hurt cut with cold
White sky

Freeze dried bitter snowflakes fall
Ghostly petals, all ash settles
Tastes like metal tears I cry

All beneath it dark and thin
She is laughter, I’m her sin
Spring’s undressed and late again
Kisses keep her home in bed

Come instead with me, I said
Sweeter than tomorrow’s dead
And in the talk tomorrow's fire was sacrificed
For love, a lie

And I for love gave nothing more than words
She drank and wanted more
Though sweet they never satisfy
And she would risk her very life to feed the need
She’d been deceived to see as real
And feel so strong about it that she’d give up everything
For me
Though she meant nothing at all to me
Which she found out shortly

She lost herself
And losing me
Had caught my cold
And become me

All about me she becomes
The mud that fills the cracks of earth
The seed that swells the womb to birth
The word that gives a woman worth

New becomes familiar
Resented spent, peculiar
Returned as rented though they were
Desired greatly earlier

In ornate cages life forgotten withers
Purchased for display
From the rising sun I run
Look backwards at the coming day

Forever on the brink of hope
Addicted to its butterflies
But living life while in reverse
Is seeking truth while telling lies

What does this mean
I cannot own what I am given, dare not waste
God deserves all my attention
Lord of all my senses taste

Taken

The snowflakes that fell on her lips didn’t melt
Until my mouth almost covered hers

I thought she inhaled the frost of winter
And one of my tears through the space between our faces
As she slipped away somewhere
From where I could not retrieve her

And the snow fell
And the cars drove past us
And people stood around in their dark coats looking
At my helplessness

The sun, already hiding behind the cold gray sky
Snuck away quietly
Taking time
And echoes

Leaving only me

Confucia

Pillows upon pillows of clouds
Washed of color and hung heavy upon no
Thing, this absence of being
Whose lost life reeks
Of an off-putting, unhygienic religious
Mindlessness

My soul screams for the unbearable violence of pure light
To burn white air through and to
Ashen hearts
Mine especially

Utterly alone before turned eyes
Devastated by the clarity of everything else
Nothing between me
And every sin lying upon me
Smothering

Voyeur

I heard doves on your balcony
And caught a glimpse of skin
From the café across the street
The angle of the sun on you
Rushing to meet my eyes

The aroma of fresh bread
Aroused my senses
Like rose
And morning tea
On the last day of Spring

Sipping from my cup
I imagined you had disappeared to a warm bath
Wet skin silky smooth…
And almost closed my eyes

Glancing at my wristwatch, I smiled
Knowing your bed was still unmade
And with the window wide open

Your white curtains
Dreamed carelessly
Flirting with the air
I breathed

Fallen angel

She fell
Like a knife through a red curtain
Through my soul

And though I screamed
I didn’t bleed

Just hung there
Split in two
Waiting for a breeze to tell me
Who I am

And she sunk below me
In the thick dark pools of my ignorance
At the very last
Reaching for me

But I was slowed by anger
And missed the chance
To save her
From her
Natural consequences

And when she disappeared
My eyes grew accustomed to the dark
And my ears grew accustomed to the silence
And gradually
I discovered varying shades of life
My passion had blinded me to

Peace gave a new color to everything
And I realized that where there is color
There is light

And the light came through the tear in my soul
Caused by her violent cruelty

A horrible pain
I now consider
Thoughtfully…

My beautiful prey

The herd moves
A thousand options the same color
I yawn, full of the remembrance of meat
In my face the breeze brings nothing new

Then a sigh and a moan heard for hundreds of miles
Grabs the testicular root of my heart
And a flash of daydream explodes brilliantly in my head

Adolescent breasts, naïve in the cool air
Rise from an arched back
While a violent erection salivates in the wind-bent rushes
Each breath heated with murderous thoughts

She sees me in the tall grass
But she is unafraid
A dangerous flash of perfect teeth
Pulling me in by the scruff of my neck

Intoxicated, I dream
Clutching her hips
Crying into the small of her back
Imagining the honey dripping from between her thighs
My Agua de Vida

Eyelashes coy
Nostrils flared
Tender affections spun from her fingertips
Her hot wet tongue burns my nipples

I am smoke from an extinguished flame
A blue whisper
Purring over her beautiful soft flesh

Her scent provokes the beast within me
My raspy tongue longs to tear the innocence away from her bone
Risking death by tasting forbidden fruit
Addicted to my own hunger for her

I am a monster enslaved by her eyes
Drunk with the color of her passion
Ravaged by the fresh breath of her eroticism,
Satisfaction’s repetition, the bitter perspiration of her desire...

I’ve learned to purr with my claws unsheathed
Selfishly protective of my prey
My beautiful prey